Usually these posts have been connected to stuff I've been doing, places I've been going, just all that stuff. But this isn't going to be one of those.
Before I left for this place all I wanted to do was call my school and cancel everything. Seriously! I was so completely afraid of the unknown, that I just wanted to run away from it.
This was genuinely my mindset until I got here.
Literally in the airport I was hoping that for some reason my flight got cancelled, or they wouldn't let me in the country so I could just go home. I was so shaken, and so afraid, I wanted to run back home.
It is actually insane to me that I leave this place in 19 days.
19 days.
My heart is breaking into a thousand pieces.
Ormskirk, and Edge Hill University, has been the greatest experience of my life so far. I have met so many amazing people, I have done so many amazing things, and I don't want it to end.
If I had it my way I would stay here for as long as I could.
(Annnd I have checked to see if I could stay for the next semester, if you were wondering.)
Sitting, crying, at my computer in Katherine Fletcher Hall room 35, I beg everyone who reads this to go abroad.
Go somewhere completely new and different. Go by yourself. Don't let your fear control you.
Be bigger.
Be bolder.
Be an entirely new person.
I wish I could stay here forever. I know that sounds so entirely cheese-ball-ish, but it is for real. With every single part of my soul I wish I could wrap every person from my hall in a box and just bring them to America. Even the one's I've never talked to, or that I don't really get along with.
These people just have such an important place in my heart, and I will never forget them.
I really don't want to leave, but it's inevitable, and it sucks.
I can't stop crying about it, and I can't stop thinking about how sad I will be without these people.
However, this experience has changed me into a bold, courageous, adventure woman. Someone I never would have become living in my comfort zone.
Before I left I knew traveling alone, and doing this Study Abroad, would make my life different. I was right.
My life won't ever be the same, in the greatest way possible.
I am so beyond grateful for the people that kicked me out of my comfort zone, especially my amazing mother. Without going, this space in my heart filled with so much love for the people here would be empty.
I don't really know who actually reads these posts, and it could really just be my mom (hi Colleen), but regardless I love my life here. I am forever thankful for this experience.
I cannot wait to come back.
<3
